Your Request is Granted...

Every 2 months or so, I get a terrible stomach ache that doesn't go away for several days. I'm not sure what it is or why it happens... Yesterday, I woke up at 3:30am with it again. Knowing that I had to be up at 5:00 for stage managing, I tried my best to get a couple more hours of (unfortunately restless) sleep. I was determined to have a good morning because I had been looking forward to working with the two other girls that were rostered on my team. Before I left, God put Matthew 4:23 on my heart, so I opened it up and read,

"Jesus went throughout Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom, and healing every disease and sickness among the people (italics mine)."

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Lately, the idea of healing has been really heavy on my mind. It is one of those things that I will never understand, especially when, like with my current request, I don't receive the healing I ask for right away. The questions that i ask myself are, "Do I really believe He wants to and will do this? Do I trust in medicine and worldly inventions more than I do in my Creator?" Whoa.

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After reading "...and healing every disease and sickness among the people," I just sat there on my bed in unbelief that the Holy Spirit would guide me to such a specific verse. he does it often, but every time I am stunned by His intimate knowledge of my current needs. An answer to my questions before is simply, "No, I don't." If I'm really being honest with myself, I can close my eyes and wish with all my might that my faith is as sure as the Canaanite woman's in Matthew 15:21-28; but there's still a wall there in my heart--and I'm sad to conclude that my faith has mainly been based on experience to this point.

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It is certainly a journey, but God is revealing new ways to extend my faith without sight of the end result. Through church, lectures, chapels, conversations with friends, devotions, and assignments--as well as the research it has provoked--has encouraged me to pursue a childlike faith. This childlike faith believes whole-heartedly that my Father wants to bless me; it believes that He is the answer to anything I need; and it believes fully in the promises of God's Word-instead of letting human experiences dictate my personal faith. What an honor it would be to hear Jesus say to me, as He did to this woman in verse 28,

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"Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted."